I poured it out because I found him in the garage drinking his hidden stash. Wasn't in my face, though his half inebriated state had been all day. My very last nerve had been pushed to the limit. Grabbed it out, went directly to the sink and poured. Snapped! Even as I sit here and know what I did was not working my own program, I am not sure I would change it. I know I need to work harder.
Very wise, caring souls here in SR. Thank you for the responses. I have read them over and over. I want things to sink in deep. I really hope some day all the things I know become all the things I do.