matrac

I meant ill....
We get by for a year or two at a time, and just when we become hopeful that we have found what is most helpful and what can keep him stable enough to finish his education and find joy in his life, it seems he has a breakdown. It comes from seeming out of nowhere and it gets so bad. He’s been hospitalized many times. Other times, he’s needed to be hospitalized and we didn’t because it just doesn’t seem to help and it’s always traumatic for him. He gets doped up and discharged. He’s been in therapy for years, had many doctors evaluate him.

He becomes violent and it’s pretty scary at times. What can I say? I am trembling inside and I would love a drink. I know I need to keep my wits about me though because things can easily go the wrong way. Hoping we get through this quickly. I give anything in my life for him to be well.