Dearest Truthseeker, I'm sorry for all the pain you are going through but my question to you is, who is taking care of your children? Do you have shared custody and only drink without them around? They are in need of you being your best self, they need your love, attention, guidance and role modeling. Please tell me this man is not taking precedence over your mothering. NO MAN is worth sacrificing your children for. I hope you mourn through your pain quickly and become the awesome mother you need to be.