Not for nothing but this is the kind of self consumed attitude that AA helps one to shed. Has anyone seen you hammered in public? Chances are you have been gossiped about with regard to that.
Soberiety is the single greatest gift you can give yourself. And it is beyond in right now. And to be frank; nobody really cares. None of us are that important.
I'm sorry but this seems like a reason, an excuse to drink. Things our disease tells us to keep us sick.
GL.
Jules