but I cant get past what people think and so I wont get sober that way.
first...lousy excuse.
second.....i think you'd be surprised just how little time other people spending thinking about YOU......everyone is too tied up in their own stuff, worrying about what other people think!!!!
i know you think you are presenting this perfect image....but again, nobody really cares except the person looking back at you in the mirror.
do you remember the family event recently that you got wasted and blacked out? that is what DRINKING gets you. that is what resisting help gets you. or feeling that you are just too unique. you are not. NONE of us are.......alcohol is the great equalizer. it brings us all to our knees.
get humble, get willing, get sober. you WILL NOT regret it.