Originally Posted by
JADIII 
It just seems like always thinking about not drinking starts to get taxing on my and then I finally cave.
Have you ever seen a child throwing a tantrum in a store because s/he wanted something? The child knows the parents will eventually cave, that's why s/he does it.
Sometimes the parent says, "OK, but this is the last time."
That parent is delusional if they think it's going to be the last time. The tantrum worked, there will be more.
That parent is going to have to practice telling that child "no" and "no" and "no" many, many times before the tantrums stop.
I have an alcoholic living in my head. It has no power, so it has tantrums to get what it wants. For years I would say, "OK, but this is the last time!" That was delusional.
Retraining that sumbeach was hard.
That's OK, we can do hard things.
Get after it. You can do this.
