Thanks all, was doing pretty well and it seems like the smallest thing can be a trigger to grab a drink. Going to reset my clock on this app I have and move forward on day 1 again as I feel stupid and embarrassed.
A few quick questions or thoughts.
Thought- I have a lot going on in my life (job, marriage, kids, etc.) It just seems like always thinking about not drinking starts to get taxing on my and then I finally cave. It really like wearing a chain around my neck with a huge weight on it. Of course I never think about not eating a grapefruit today because I don't like the way they taste. Why can't I do the same with booze as it doesn't taste that great?
Also, many of you post here each day or at least check in. How/why does that help you? Is it something that makes you open your eyes to things or is it something that makes the AV go away?
Thanks, tired of this treadmill and yes, I need to have a plan. This I know.