I know I shouldnt go but Im so bored and want to go out an have some fun. I know I shouldnt and know its a bad idea. I want to so bad to grab a pack of smokes and tell my friend to meet me at the bar and party till 2 am. I havent been to a bar in a year. I am a at home alone drinker. Something in my mind is telling me its okay to go to a bar and drink. I deserve it. I know its my AV but the $% </% wont shut up lol