For me, it's almost like once I get the fact that I'm going to drink, there's nothing going to hold me back. In fact, when I'm going to the liquor store I almost feel sick that I'm going to buy booze but I still go anyway.
I used the community here. Every time I felt that urge to drunk I posted here
instead.
I didn't much like it, but every time I did that, saying no the next time got easier.
There no magic involved , no great dramatic flash of light where everything changed.
You absiolutely hve the poer to say no - even to yourself. You may not believe that at the moment, but just because you never have doesn't mean its not in you to do so
It was darned hard work saying no to the desire - maybe the hardest I've ever worked - but it saved my life.
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