gabe, on the boring thing-it reads like letting others' determine if you are or not. being around a bunch of drinkers i think id be lookin at THEM and sayin,
"dam theyre boring! just sit around,get drunk,do and say stupid crap?????"
something quite common with alcoholics- we want it and we want it now,dammit!
i wanted to feel good. i wanted to love myself. i wanted peace and serenity. i wanted to enjoy life and all that NOW!
unfortunately, it took many years to get to the doors of AA. many years of living with a melon full of crap(and adding more as the years progressed), years of alcohol for everything, and years of bad solutions.
it was going to take T.I.M.E. to get everything i wanted,but i was promised that as long as i worked for it i WOULD get it all. i would have ALL of the promises of the program of AA materialize.
and they all have at some point-quite often without me realizing it.