Hi sokatie. I'm glad to see you back, & to know you haven't given up on a better life for yourself.
I'm over 10 yrs. sober. I drank 30 yrs. In the beginning, I thought of drinking/not drinking constantly. After a few months of sobriety, those thoughts began to fade. Today, taking a drink never crosses my mind. The thing I once lived for is not an option. I know it can never make anything better or easier. It will only complicate my life & bring me to my knees once again. It took me a few tries to get to this point - but I know I'll never pick up & destroy the new life I've built for myself. I come here every day to encourage others, not because I need to be convinced to not drink. Reading the newcomer's stories as they begin their journey helps keep me strong & vigilant. I hope to be a good example & to help stop the terrible suffering & misery.
I hope you'll stay with us.