Bunchie you are quite right to take it slowly. I first attended meetings last year did the first 3 steps and am now coming back to it. We are dealing with sub-concious feelings and emotions buried for decades. People without alcohol problems have them too. May be our silver lining as alcoholics is that we need to face up to these things to recover. I would recommend attending AA relax listening to shares, don't rush to a sponsor. Listen to the shares that make sense to you and consider these people as sponsors. I have been off and on drinking in the last year and my resolve to stop and understanding of myself not least through AA is increasing all the time.