Losing hope
I'm really at that point right now.
I feel like the problems in my life have no answers. I don't want to die- I really, truly do not. But I don't see a way out sometimes. I genuinely believe if I stay here, in this exact situation, I am going to die. But every time I try to change my situation, I just hit dead ends. I'm not a hopeless person and it's very rare for me to give up, so when I say it's bad- it's really bad. Even when I went to therapy, outpatient treatment and meetings and explained my situation, people all said the same thing: I really don't know what to tel you.
I'm at the point where I'm willing to do anything, because I feel like I'm fighting for my life. And then there are times where I'm so tired of fighting and I just want to give up and just quit everything.
There has to be an answer. God didn't put me on the earth for this to be my life.