Truthseeker11

You are very right about active alcoholics and users triggering our childhood traumas. But I don’t think that holds true of all recovering alcoholics and users at all.

I, too, disowned most of what little family I have left. My sister may be dead I don’t know, she was a heroine addict when I last spoke to her ten years ago. All I had left was my aunt and she’s addicted to Xanax and other pills that make her very selfish, ungrateful and toxic to me. I don’t have many friends either. I’ve stuck by very neglectful alcoholic boyfriends in an effort to relive my traumas but this time fix and heal them. That has never worked and it never will. My mom was an alcoholic my whole life and died from early onset Alzheimer’s. Lack of family is part of why I drank so much, usually alone because I felt I couldn’t relate to all these people I knew at the bar who had family and friends. It just made me feel even more of an outsider and a born loner.