I think most of us hoped that a little time off would be enough to reset our relationship with alcohol, but alas for me it was not to be.
Don't confuse abstinence for control.
I think alcoholism is progressive and even if you were once a normal drinker, you're not now...
Sorry if this reads harshly but honestly truthseeker - normal drinkers don't usually find themselves in the ER...and then start bargaining ways to drink three or four days later.