Well said. It was around the four month mark for me when I suddenly realized I had no idea who the man I grew into was because I'd been sauced since I was 19.
I had literally no idea, it was kind of terrifying.
Now I'm finding out being sober is actually enjoyable. It took me a while to adjust, pretty much everything in life triggered my "grab-a-drink reflex" and that was hard to deal with for a while.
I never gave being sober a chance a single time since my first college bender back at the turn of the 1990s. No wonder the idea is kind of scary, it's completely new!
Congrats on breaking 100 days!