Thanks for reading everyone.
I'm still here.....still sober but I'm struggling, so I've stayed in bed today.
I've had a couple of realisations today (that definitely wouldn't have happened if I'd drank last night), I think I put myself in this role because I'm still too afraid of being myself. It gives me a identity I feel safe with. I'm a big part of this problem. I have to accept that. It's hard feeling like this and staying sober. I really just want it to stop but I'm an adult and I'm choosing to experience this, as I've been hiding from it for too long.
Happy sober Sunday everyone
