Thanks LeeLee, I agree with you. I haven't laid eyes on him for many months so don't know what I'll see. But I do know that the person I loved isn't there. Don't know if he ever was there, perhaps my belief in what he presented. Maybe there was some truth,maybe he did love me. But he is gone, onto the next party and the next one to buy in. I don't miss him at all. He came with too much abuse. I wish you well and the strength you need. Thanks
Thanks Pinkyxo, I"ll look into EMDR. I have heard of it, but that's about it. Thanks for the suggestion. I recognize that I was abused and I want to heal in the healthiest manner I can. I don't want to be jaded or afraid to trust again. What ever I can add to my healing process is welcome. Believe it or not, I have started doing yoga and love that time. Doing things for myself has been really important in this process.