I can so relate with the" drink before I do something". I'm 49 with 2 teenagers (b/16 & g/ 19). They know when I drink & when I 'm withdrawing. That's because I sit on the couch, glasses instead of contacts, unable to do anything & hubby has to take on the mother role. I, too, would drink throughout the whole day.
Right now I'm weaning off because my withdrawals are bad. I have my set date and am determined to keep it this time. I have a plan on my own terms. I can't do it for my kids-as much as I love them-because alcohol always won. I'm doing it for myself this time.
Thank you for your post. It's good to know that you're not alone and someone else shares your same struggles. Onward & Upward!