day 2 and i've given up
hey guys,
haven't been around for a while. managed 97 days this winter and decided to get drunk because **** it, i'm not an alcoholic..
since February i haven't been sober more than a week. got steadily back into smoking pot which always has been my DOC with alcohol a close second.
since about 2014 i've gone through the cycle. a couple months sober then go out for more..
on wednesday i said enough is enough. the last 2 months i was stoned most of the days. last week i drank 4 days out of 7. i just can't moderate. i know if i keep going this way i will waste my life. that first drink will lead to more. that first puff will lead to much more, even if its not the next day.
thanks for reading guys. i'm not going to a bar for a while now. i won't let substances ruin me. i think i've finally learned my lesson.
i will stay sober today.