Hi HigherCall
I think Bims right on the money with us giving ourselves permission to drink.
I did that for a long time - I didn't want to miss out (even tho drink was destroying me) and I felt that there was still some mystical point where I could drink as much as I wanted and not have bad things happen - if only I could find it....
I couldn't find it because it doesn't exist.
My life is better in every way now.
I had a 50th last year - didn't drink - still had a great time
why not give it a real go, HC?
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