I would say things will improve if you stop giving yourself permission to continue to drink.
Yes there will be events at which other people drink. I've been to those, and I don't drink at them. Even at my own birthday.
Just don't pick up that first drink. Go to bed sober. Do it again tomorrow. Pretty soon the days string together.
If you can't do that, I would strongly suggest you talk to your doctor or get to an AA meeting or look into some sort of intensive "quit" program or rehab.
Hope isn't what you need. Action is.