Originally Posted by
Laura3 
Drinking is a slow miserable death. In my case it is also a wish for death but it's a bad choice. I don't have much to live for anymore so sometimes I mix in some pills then totally black out, like yesterday I don't know what I did.
Have you thought of calling a crisis line Laura, or maybe some one on one counselling?
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums...ease-read.html
I thought I had a death wish when I was drinking - but then I really did nearly die...and I fought like a wildcat to stay alive...
The fact your're here and posting leads me to suspect that there's a part of you that does want to fight for your life Laura - fan that flame
Reaching out for help could be the first step on that journey?
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