Old 07-12-2018, 10:41 PM
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Stayingsassy
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I know what you mean. I was watching Glow on Netflix last night and one of the girls on the show got terribly drunk. Slurring, swaying, and kept drinking.

I haven't gone out much for almost a year, keeping things quiet for my first year, so seeing someone hammered was disturbing. I haven't seen anyone that drunk for a long time.

Freaked me out a bit because it repulsed me and I had some sharp memories of that fully drunk feeling, steeped in chemical liquid, no motor control, no cognitive control and it shocked me that I used to do that on purpose. I had a sliver of fear that I am vulnerable to that and it made me nauseous.

I don't want to drink at all anyway but seeing that made me want to run.

I went right back to my normal state of just being. No reason to dwell on the bad stuff when it's over. No reason to believe that I'll drink either, because I don't drink anymore.
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