Originally Posted by badlands

My sober date chose me as well. I have a lot of vacation time and towards the end of my drinking days, my vacations were benders. I wasn't blacking out, but I was drinking all day starting in the late morning, hiding it from my wife. I'd have about 5 in me by happy hour when I could drink 'in the open' with her. I started to wake up with anxiety in the middle of the night and would have a beer and a xanax to get back to sleep. My first day back to work was typically pretty rough, but I'd muscle through. However, in the week before I quit I was having active withdrawal at work (near panic attacks, etc). My job comes with a lot of responsibility, and it was utterly terrifying. The horror of being at work feeling like that made me quit. That was Aug 30, 2017. It hasn't always been easy, but omg is life so much better.

Best of luck to you.