There absolutely is great hope and a wonderful, happy and bright future for you if you accept your alcoholism and get into a recovery program and get working it. Try AA or any other program and also try to use SR as much as possible. SR is a wonderful recovery tool and it’s been a massive part of my recovery. I will always be massively grateful for SR. Recovery is all about rigorous honesty with yourself and honestly doing as much as you need to do to stay sober and keep progressing forwards one day at a time. Work out what that is for you always remaining sober at all costs.