Originally Posted by
Laura3 
Yes the drugs have made me depressed but the meaningless feeling is always there. I'm not always depressed
Laura, I'm sorry you are in such a bad spot right now.. believe me, things CAN get better. A feeling of "meaninglessness" is a big symptom of depression.
Many of us have been there. Drink because you are anxious or sad (unconsciously "medicating" yourself). Then the alcohol makes anxiety and depression worse, you drink more, it gets worse. It's a vicious cycle.
You can get off this drinking drugs sadness misery treadmill. There's a beautiful life waiting for you out there. Give yourself a chance.