Hi Mistakes,
I had posted in your previous thead....sorry your still feeling so bad.
Have you tried just doing some self care? Maybe try to put the whole relapse on the back burner, for tonight.
A nice hot bubble bath, soothing music, a candle...
These things will all relax you, naturally.
Then tomorrow, you can face this with a sense of calmness and clarity.
Take care,
WF