Lots of us go through allll kinds of bargaining:
I'll only drink wine.
I'll never drink in the morning.
I'll only drink at home.
I'll only drink when out.
Maybe moving to another city/apartment/neighborhood will help....
None of them work for an alcoholic.
I hope you will look into what alcoholism is, and isn't - and if you need to quit permanently, seek help to do it. We can't tell you if you are an alcoholic - but at the least you've told us about problem drinking.
Best to you.