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fini is part of being stoic a fear of falling apart?
I have never looked at my stoic manner of examining all available data then acting as totally unflinching.
Physically, maybe, I’ve often prided myself, but not emotionally: I usually flinch emotionally—but I view it like a prizefighter getting knocked down and doggedly getting back up again.
Interesting question about the determination not to break down emotionally.
I believe it started in kindergarten. I cried every single day at school, and the other kids would tease me.
So when I got to first grade I vowed never to cry in school again—and I didn’t (all except for once—and even then I held it off till nobody else could see).
Plus now for bipolar I’m on a mood stabilizer plus an anti-psychotic drug, and they dampen the intensity of my emotions for the most part.
Yesterday the sadness was just too much, though, and it ‘broke through.”