Originally Posted by
Nonsensical 
I felt like a giant bag of buttholes the day I found this website, and now I'm living a life so amazing some days I can barely believe it. Here's what I believe about that:
What got me here will keep me here.
I don't
have to participate here. I
get to participate here.
Best of Luck on Your Journey!
I guess my brain just looks at it differently. If i busted my but getting a Masters Degree, would i want to keep studying, cause it got me the degree?
I would want to graduate and get a career. I just want the studying/maintainance of recovery to have an end point. When i see people 20 years sober still active, i feel hopeless.
Quitting drinking has been as stressful as actual drinking for me. They both suck in a way. I will not be truly happy till the though of alcohol is out of the way for life.