Nearly daily liver and or spleen pains and the occasional acute pancreatitis attacks that would blast through to my back. Then my buddy told me about some dude he knows that left the bar as usual and was dead the next day - liver failure. That was a few months after another guy I knew who died of kidney failure within a week due to alcoholism. That would be like 5 people within 2 years I either knew or know someone who knew them - all younger than myself. Can't keep playing with fire, so I did what needed to be done. I still get some pains.
As for AV, I don't even know wtf AV is. I've had far more drunken days than sober days in my entire life. My thoughts are mine - I can't attribute them to some alter ego who likes to drink - he is me, and I am him. People say it took X length "to get back to normal" I don't even know what normal is or feels like. I do think I need to continue this path to see where it leads, though.