hi there,
so glad you posted....what a positive decision!
drinking may feel like it solves or takes care of problems, but it doesn't, in fact it adds more, usually.
you are right, it is not the same as being there in "real life", but we are all very much real also, and really here speaking with you and listening also.
in "real life" there are options for help with depression, alcoholism or addiction to alcohol, and i don't know where that phone number you were given connects to, but it is one call you can make right now.
crisis line is available 24/7 most everywhere and can connect you with other real-life resources.
your courage in speaking and sharing is helping other folks right now.
stick around.