I’m sorry to hear about your mom, Theexcitingkid. I just went through that myself and it’s super hard, but more manageable when drinking is not involved. I hope you’ll take the advice given and get rid of the gun and get some sleep, or keep talking to us. I know online support may not be the same as real life support, but it has helped me through some tough times and I hope it will help you too. Please keep us updated on how you’re doing.