Morning everyone,
I woke up today feeling so good about my decision to quit, went for a run in the sunshine and came home feeling amazing, that has to rival any drug high!
It's great to have a fresh head, be able to engage fully and do things with my family. Really beginning to feel like this might be it, my time to break free, after so many broken promises.
The AV has quietened down a little, it knows its cornered. It's been trying to bargain a little 'well what about when it's just when you go to see your friend down south' 'how about you only do it special occasions etc' but I know from bitter experience that that just leads to more using so the answer is NO.
I just want this nagging voice in my head that has haunted me to go away forever. I can see now what a hold it had on me, and the only way to break free is to do it totally, no exceptions.
Enjoy your road trip Futurehope, did you decide what to tell your friend?
Hope everyone is doing well, for those finding it tough keep going and it will soon get better!