LivinginLV, I don't live in your life, so I can't say for sure whether you have a problem with alcohol or not. But, I will say that if it is your AV talking, it sounds just like mine. As soon as I start feeling better, I start seeing other people drinking and my AV says, See? Everyone drinks, it's an enjoyable part of life! What is wrong with you that you deny yourself so much? … And lots of other things, too, of course. It's helped me to go back and read posts, read others' posts and write out all the reasons alcohol makes my life miserable and read that a lot. I hope it helps you, too.
Also, I have a replacement drink. Now it's cherry cranberry juice, but I've had others. I find myself craving it. I sit down and drink way too much of it, and often have some snacks to go with. This is not the time for me to be dieting, though that time will come soon.