Thanks for all the replies.. I have noticed a 'sea change' in the Beast/AV the past couple of days. I just keep saying 'no, don't do that anymore' when it comes by with its beastly cravings. I'm also beginning to see with fresh, un-AV eyes just how stupid and pointless and costly a drug like cocaine is. It will be great not to have that whispering voice in my ear all the time, the one that says 'go on, score, just a little bit, do it when (husband) is not around and he'll never know'. (he always did know as I'd do much and tell him)
I realise the voice may still whisper away but I see now that I don't have to act on it. In the past, I always gave in after a while mainly just to shut the Beast up which I realise was just reinforcing it and making it learn that I would always give in. No more.