Being the 4th of July, I went out today. I went to the best friend’s, and we shotgunned a beer before I even put my purse down. I happened to walk up right into that, just because of timing. I knew I was okay, though. I truly felt okay hanging out yet keeping the drinking to a minimum. I did great there, then went to my cousin’s house. Hung out there, then various people started migrating downtown. I of course followed. I was totally fine. Until I fell off the toilet, completely face forward, and my cousin’s girlfriend had to help me and all i remember is her telling me to pull my pants up. I never did anything CLOSE to that when i was drinking st my heaviet, so why now?! MOST humiliating moment.
Returning to my non drinking habits is not my concern. I can do that. But I tested it more, i failed, but it was a POSITIVE fail. I just saw tonight again and was reminded again what happens, how stupid drinking is.
