Thanks, Dee and everyone else who wrote out their experience. It's very valuable to see the reasons, big and small, that got and kept you sober. It seems like loving the sober life you have built is key. The old wanting to be sober more than you want to drink adage. I guess at 3-7 weeks in, I'm not only increasing my anxiety (kindling), but also not giving myself enough time to reap the benefits. I'll work on having faith and trying to talk down rather than fight with the AV. I also need to start working on my other mental health issues alongside the drinking.
Sigh. Lots of work to do.