Originally Posted by
ProfessorD 
When I say the sober days are good, I mean the ones immediately following the benders. I like getting sober, I guess, but a few weeks in, I lose my resolve. The whys stop stacking up, as you say.
My last drink nearly killed me. I realised actually I don't want to die yet. I wanted to live but I couldn't live (exist) anymore as I had been.
In my case just putting the drink down was not enough. I am having to learn to live a whole new way of life without alcohol. For me personally I am using the steps of AA but that is not the only way you just have to find what fits you best. Not drinking but not changing never worked for me. I always lost my resolve and picked up again.
In my case I am learning that there is so much more going on with me than just drinking and if I am going to STAY sober I have to work on me and my recovery on a DAILY basis.