Originally Posted by
doggonecarl 
That should be all the "why" you need for "Why I don't drink"
We all had a reason we quit. But as you are finding out, the why weakens and the addiction starts seeking leverage. For you, your "whys" don't stack up, so you drink.
My "why I quit" isn't what keeps me sober. I don't drink anymore. Period. I don't need a why I quit to remind me. Sobriety reaps its own benefits. That's "why" I don't drink.
You say you are reaping yours....why isn't that sufficient?
When I say the sober days are good, I mean the ones immediately following the benders. I like getting sober, I guess, but a few weeks in, I lose my resolve. The whys stop stacking up, as you say.