Hi again
Last fall I was pretty active on here, posting and commenting. Doing so helped me achieve my longest stretch of sobriety and I felt proud of myself. Then I had a death in the family that threw me hard, and the mind-numbing effects of alcohol felt very comforting. But, I'm ashamed to say I'm back where I started.
I've been extremely hesitant to tell some important people in my life about how I feel I've been struggling, but I ended up having a long conversation last night with one of my best friends. Turns out she has been having an issue with drinking too much and more frequently too, and not being able to stop. She told me that everything I said, sounded as if she could have said it herself.
I felt such a sense of relief to not only have come clean to someone in my life about what's going on and not feel judged in any way, but to also realize I'm not alone. I mentioned to her that last fall, I had attended a few AA meetings and am going to start again. She asked how they were, said she's interested and wants to come with me. I also would like to look into SmartRecovery meetings too and have found a few nearby.
It feels good to have told her because it just gives me more support to what I know I have here, which I know I'll need. I'm also starting yoga classes this week which I think might be helpful and a good way to ease back into fitness.
So...that's the bones of my plan for now.