I don't think Im going to live much longer. I physically feel my body giving up. My heart hurts and my chest feels hollow
These are powerful messages from your soul. It wants your help. What would you do for a friend who was in the same place? Treat yourself like you would that friend. Get to a hospital. Years ago, I became a friend to myself and did just that. It was a part of my journey to the sobriety I cherish today.