Getting counseling is mandatory I am in the process of finding one.
I'm just mad at myself that after day 1 of taking it I liked it so much that my addict self took over and I had to start increasing the dose. Doesn't mean anything it was only a few days, but it just pisses me off that I did it.
The first day I took Suboxone I felt wonderful. Happy, super productive...and I wanted more of it. "shaking my head"
Gonna try to move past it. Suboxone for me is a route I think I have to go because I could not function if I didn't have opiates. Not necessarily because I was in physical withdrawal but mentally too. I would turn to other drugs or substances to deal with not having opiates. Suboxone has brought some stability to my life even though it's only been a week.