I have been in your shoes, over and over and over again.
He wanted me to get sober, the hangover day I wanted to get sober.
I was tired of disappointing him
I was tired of being rude to him
I was embarrassed what I put him through
I didn't want him to leave me
I wanted his support
I didn't want him to drink around me
That was my thinking when I first went to AA back in 2011.
The difference from then to now?
I was to be sober
I want to be proud of who I am
I want to respect myself
I want to be happy
I deserve a good life
I deserve a life in which I choose how I want to be.
I got sober for him, or at least I tried.
It wasn't until I got sober for me that the real change happened.
Best of luck