Hi Jjb- Ten years ago that post could have been written by me. Mother, wife, and closet alcoholic. Hiding can and bottles. A nervous wreck wondering if I will run out and not be able to think up and excuse to get to the liquor store. I've done it. I understand. I seriously have no idea why on Aug 1 2008 I decided no more but boy am I glad I did. I can't believe I almost have 10 years sober. It's so much better. Keep holding on. It is so hard at times but worth it. Good luck.