Sweeti I can't imagine the loss and betrayal you have gone through. To say you care about your ex is obvious but the cruelty of those people is mind boggling. I hope you resolve to steel yourself (to fill oneself with determination and courage) to disengage from their sick messed up antics. Hopefully you pour out any remaining vodka and begin again walking down your sober path. So many other nice people in the world, get to know them. Good luck and God bless you.