Thank you very much everyone for letting me feel that im accepted this is the first time i feel light in my shoulder that some burden has been off it really feels good to be understand and somebody listen i should done this post long time ago but i cant get the notion of sharing makes u feel better but now that i try it and experience it right now .for sure you will see me here more often.thank you very much everyone for making me feel good.ill read some more of the thread and keep learning.