Originally Posted by
andyh 
hang in there ((Snufs))
anxiety is a bit catch-22 - if you need the help you're too anxious to ask
I really hope you'll take a risk & try trusting one (or both) of your Doctors. what's the worst that can happen? I don't think they have the budget for straightjackets any more
Thank you Andy.
Yeah I know... there’s not much logic in what I do. It’s hard to explain; every single time during any of my appointments, I feel so nervous and anxious there’s only one thought on my mind.
I have to leave this building... I want to go home... 
My BF has to come with me to see my GP, because I refuse to talk sometimes. Just... whyy... brain, could you stop acting crazy please? I thought we discussed this.
I hope I’m better one day. I hope I’ll never drink again - I’m thousand times worse when I drink... *shudder*