Mt,
I learned here why I crave. It is no mystery.
It is science. We drinks have brain damage. We need booze to feel normal.
It takes years to normalize, the whole time relapse waits.
Folks regret relapse after years of sobriety.
I had to suffer and change my lifestyle. Exercise is my new drug.
The only way out is to suffer. I suffer daily.
Hope this helps.
Thanks.